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Mar. 3rd, 2025 06:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
calgabrielReB gets every single girl who talks to him for a little.. :( I want to be charming like him, I want girls to talk to me for other reasons, not to just make fun of me. Do you think if I get arrested they’ll tell me to get off the internet? Or what if they tell me I can’t talk to ReB? I feel really nauseous right now.. School’s in an hour but I REALLY don’t want to go.. I don’t trust myself to not do something I’ll regret.. Maybe it would just be better if they put me back in the psych ward. :( I don’t want them to tell me I can’t talk to ReB, he’s the only person that has EVER listened.
My hands feel so fuzzy and weird, I’m so sick right now.. I don’t know what was wrong yesterday and why I was posting like that — Embarrassing.. I slit and it felt really good though, if I felt sexual attraction the same and as easy as others, masturbation worthy. I wouldn’t do that though.. Sex isn’t as good as everyone talks it up to be. All that matters is unraveling and showing each other your insides.. Pure romance, see who they are on ThE INSIDe.
Ideal date, watch a girl fall apart at the tip of my blade… Crying and squirming, but her organs are so beautiful.. The perfect shade of red and purple— AND eVerything inside. :) Suffering so beautiful, nobody can recreate how this (hypothetical) girl makes me feel.. Ohh, please please.. So desperate.. Ugh, I’m talking like how I was yesterday, aren’t I? I don’t know what I’m feeling.. I don’t know how to explain it, I just don’t want to go back to the psych ward or hospital in general. I actually HAVE someone this time.. If they take me away from ReB, I’m seriously nobody. :(
My hands feel so fuzzy and weird, I’m so sick right now.. I don’t know what was wrong yesterday and why I was posting like that — Embarrassing.. I slit and it felt really good though, if I felt sexual attraction the same and as easy as others, masturbation worthy. I wouldn’t do that though.. Sex isn’t as good as everyone talks it up to be. All that matters is unraveling and showing each other your insides.. Pure romance, see who they are on ThE INSIDe.
Ideal date, watch a girl fall apart at the tip of my blade… Crying and squirming, but her organs are so beautiful.. The perfect shade of red and purple— AND eVerything inside. :) Suffering so beautiful, nobody can recreate how this (hypothetical) girl makes me feel.. Ohh, please please.. So desperate.. Ugh, I’m talking like how I was yesterday, aren’t I? I don’t know what I’m feeling.. I don’t know how to explain it, I just don’t want to go back to the psych ward or hospital in general. I actually HAVE someone this time.. If they take me away from ReB, I’m seriously nobody. :(