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Mar. 2nd, 2025 08:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
calgabrielMy dad found my blades, fucking tard didn't know that I gave him the decoys. Nobody gonna' fucking stop me from doing what I want, LOL. I was able to buy them from Target, so it's obviously not that bad that I have them. Maybe open your brain and stop being a retard and you'd be able to see through my lies. God, WAKE UP!!! I hate all these blind faggots that can't see through a simple, white lie.
My mom saw my scars after she got out of jail and she was really upset, telling my dad but then my dad DEFENDED ME! Saying that I fussed up and gave him my blades, LMFAO. When will they realize they can't stop me? I will ALWAYS find my way around things. I don't care that they're "permanent scars" it gives me the rush nothing else satisfies.
All the blood and pain, makes me feel like I'm looking at the 4th wall. Lord, the red's so pretty. :) I used to have my walls at my old house painted dark red, ReB's probably one of the only people who know that. I had red walls, a red dresser, red phone, red blankets, it made me feel so at odd.
It's a feeling I don't know how to recreate, I have everything in my life set to red. I love seeing my blood and others bleed. It's nasty and sticky, makes the blood in my fingertips isolate. I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!! Veins are so perfect, only thing I want in a girl in visible veins. I remember when I was sedated at the hospital, they put an IV in me and I ripped it out when I woke up, blood rushed down my arm and all the doctors panicked, LOL.
I'd love to cut in a place that would squirt back at me, I want to see what's under all this grueling flesh. I want to see the disgusting body of mine and others. In my county, minors can hold/buy a knife as long as it's under 7 inches, so I might go out later and look around. Pocket knives are also beautiful, especially ones with camo handles, just perfection. I love it.
My mom saw my scars after she got out of jail and she was really upset, telling my dad but then my dad DEFENDED ME! Saying that I fussed up and gave him my blades, LMFAO. When will they realize they can't stop me? I will ALWAYS find my way around things. I don't care that they're "permanent scars" it gives me the rush nothing else satisfies.
All the blood and pain, makes me feel like I'm looking at the 4th wall. Lord, the red's so pretty. :) I used to have my walls at my old house painted dark red, ReB's probably one of the only people who know that. I had red walls, a red dresser, red phone, red blankets, it made me feel so at odd.
It's a feeling I don't know how to recreate, I have everything in my life set to red. I love seeing my blood and others bleed. It's nasty and sticky, makes the blood in my fingertips isolate. I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!! Veins are so perfect, only thing I want in a girl in visible veins. I remember when I was sedated at the hospital, they put an IV in me and I ripped it out when I woke up, blood rushed down my arm and all the doctors panicked, LOL.
I'd love to cut in a place that would squirt back at me, I want to see what's under all this grueling flesh. I want to see the disgusting body of mine and others. In my county, minors can hold/buy a knife as long as it's under 7 inches, so I might go out later and look around. Pocket knives are also beautiful, especially ones with camo handles, just perfection. I love it.
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