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Mar. 2nd, 2025 09:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
calgabrielI hate MOST women... But maybe out there, there's a girl who I could hold close and kiss. It'd be nice to have a cheesy romance, putting notes in a girl's locker, following her around, admiring how she moves... A girl so perfect I could put away any bad fact about her -- any flaw wouldn't matter. Will love even to matter after BTK? Maybe, but as long as I live in the present, I'll find a girl. A girl that ACTUALLY loves me? That let's my flawed hands caress her..
I've never had any "hallway crush" or "love at first sight" but maybe she's out there... Sometimes I think, maybe my soulmate isn't even a romantic soulmate. Maybe it's just someone I'm intertwined spiritually with, like ReB.. Someone who I can follow and mimic.
Follower.. I've always been a protectee to the sheepdog, yet it's never helped. I've never TRUELY been protected from others. It's everyone's fault I'm like this.. I wasn't shielded, my vulnerable, mushy brain getting gauged out through my eyeholes. Every relationship feels like a lobotomy at this point, no more color, besides ReB.
I've never had any "hallway crush" or "love at first sight" but maybe she's out there... Sometimes I think, maybe my soulmate isn't even a romantic soulmate. Maybe it's just someone I'm intertwined spiritually with, like ReB.. Someone who I can follow and mimic.
Follower.. I've always been a protectee to the sheepdog, yet it's never helped. I've never TRUELY been protected from others. It's everyone's fault I'm like this.. I wasn't shielded, my vulnerable, mushy brain getting gauged out through my eyeholes. Every relationship feels like a lobotomy at this point, no more color, besides ReB.