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Apr. 16th, 2025 09:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
calgabrielTherapy is kinda annoying.. And before that one guy sees this and is like "OMG, he's getting therapy!! <(0_0<) <(0_0)> (>0_0)>" Not for the mental illness you claim I have. For my Aspergers.. My dad put me in therapy because I'm non-verbal at school. I don't know why that even fucking matters, people are evil and are all out to get me. All of you people are pedophiles and retards. Anyways.. They put me in autistic group therapy, so I'll warm up to being around other people..
Fuck, I still have 80 more hours of therapy till I get to out-patient therapy.. That's not an overexaggeration, by the way. I have 10 hours of therapy every week, 3 hours of group therapy for 3 days, and 1 hour of individual therapy.. For 8 more fucking weeks.
I think my dad is realizing I'm anorexic. I've been starving so much to the point where I've maybe been collapsing in public a bit.. My entire body hurts so badly, but lord, to be my goal weight, I'd give up everything. I've been doing 24-48 hour fasts and just eating 1 meal in between. I'm fasting for 48 hours right now because I kind of binged because I felt so fucking tired. It's okay though, at least I can tell I'm losing weight.
My in-person friends have been commenting on my body and me not eating a bit.. Annoying, but I get they just want the best for me. My dad keeps offering me food and seems obviously distressed recently. He keeps randomly buying me food and getting really scared when I decline it. He's been like putting stuff in the fridge to try and get me to take it. He's being a fucking pussy; I've only lost like 5-10 pounds.. Why do people have to be so sympathetic? I know what's best for my body.
Fuck, I still have 80 more hours of therapy till I get to out-patient therapy.. That's not an overexaggeration, by the way. I have 10 hours of therapy every week, 3 hours of group therapy for 3 days, and 1 hour of individual therapy.. For 8 more fucking weeks.
I think my dad is realizing I'm anorexic. I've been starving so much to the point where I've maybe been collapsing in public a bit.. My entire body hurts so badly, but lord, to be my goal weight, I'd give up everything. I've been doing 24-48 hour fasts and just eating 1 meal in between. I'm fasting for 48 hours right now because I kind of binged because I felt so fucking tired. It's okay though, at least I can tell I'm losing weight.
My in-person friends have been commenting on my body and me not eating a bit.. Annoying, but I get they just want the best for me. My dad keeps offering me food and seems obviously distressed recently. He keeps randomly buying me food and getting really scared when I decline it. He's been like putting stuff in the fridge to try and get me to take it. He's being a fucking pussy; I've only lost like 5-10 pounds.. Why do people have to be so sympathetic? I know what's best for my body.